#tbf i’ve had this blog for 3 years now so….

[alaskan-wallflower]

4000 posts!

someone cut me off

[silvermeww]

I see you tag a lot of things as 'kalosian woods', what does it mean??? is it like a project or a fic or something? 👀

Hey there anon! Yah, it’s a massive AU/rewrite thing I have for the XY anime (and maybe games??) that I’ve been planning for a while now. The name is short for ‘beware of kalosian woods; lovely, dark and deep’ and it’s up on AO3 at currently idk 6 fics?? Which is super funny since so far I’ve managed to plan out 60 fics for it and the numbers are getting higher as I go on lol. Anyways, this all happened when I got inspired by a friend to rewrite some scenes of the anime and then welp, it snowballed into a project of massive proportions that should, if I’m motivated enough, keep me occupied for a year at least ^^’

I guess I should say some things about it since I’ve been rambling on for so long, huh? Well, in my watch of XY (and many future ruminations afterwards) I guess my biggest problem was that almost everyone but Ash and Greninja got their narrative presence and story potential whittled down to almost nothing (if not downright nothing) as the series went on. The start had promise but afterwards? Straight off the series itself I can’t tell you much about anyone in any real deep capacity (and the sad thing is that I do care about at least some of them, but they end up getting the shortest stick ever :/). So, in this rewrite I’m shaking things up and giving everyone opportunities to develop and grow, try out new things and new bonds, let the Pokémon play around with each other and their Trainers (Chespin my beloved, why did you never exist beyond the butt if the joke when you used to have a Reason for Being in your origin ep?? ;w;), all that jazz. Also including some game plots and characters (AZ should’ve been there and in my essay), more fleshed out Team Flare, maybe Southern Kalos??? Still thinking on that. More dramatic and honestly more cooler Kalos Crisis where we don’t just have two 50% Zygarde and then Zygarde Rock, changing up the way Showcases are done (letting them be their own thing seperate from Contests while also having that creative flare), more lore for that Bond Phenomenon, etc. Basically I’m going to have fun with the playground of Kalos lore/locations and letting any character that was a character have their time to shine, so if there are any backgrounders that you may have taken a shine to, there’s probably a chance that I’ve written them in this big thing heh.

(My second problem is the lack of Legendary Death Bird and Life Deer in the series that introduces them—wdym the only time I can see them is in one movie for 5 minutes? And don’t get me started on the cameo in the camp arc.

So naturally I’m going to have them play a role throughout the series as well, down to the Crisis itself. Can’t have Squishy have all the fun :3)

So, I’m not sure if I truly grasped what this project is about, tbf I’m still planning it out as I go since I’ve always been a pantser, but it’s something fun for me and I hope that more people will come to enjoy it too! A mix of every genre, some crack interspersed within the fluff and angst, Sycamore adopting way too many children while placing himself in a self-made love triangle, lore and deep connections, history and its effects, life and death and order.

And being the best version of yourself. That too.

PS I forgot to add, my tag is basically a really funny spoilers-no-spoilers compilation of posts that fit the vibe of the whole series. Like the posts just resonates with a certain part of the series and represents it and I thought that hey, might as well make a tag that would make no sense to anyone until the series is finished while also giving myself inspiration and motivation. I should probably make a side blog for the project but that’s if it gains enough traction I think, like an askblog or compilation thing. Anyways lmk if there’s anything unclear in my massive ramble or if you want to know something more/else, I’ve really enjoyed this ask if you can tell heh :D <33

[lanawinterscigarettes]

oh no clock moon anon I know this isn’t gonna help at all but I’ve spent the last week just sobbing and feeling inadequate so although I have no solutions I can confidently say you’re not alone

Aeron not you managing to predict my response when you wrote those tags omg- what can I say I’m predictable and gay for Jenna Coleman’s characters

ooooh Serena is prettyyyy

Fic editing!

Also omg birthday fic 🥹

omg you literally give me such Fluttershy vibes that’s so accurate I was OBSESSED with equestria girls well into my teen years past when it was socially acceptable which is sad but also ICONIC and I still could recite reems about all of the characters

okay I googled it and the actress playing the one from the gif is the same person who plays Sarah in outer banks who I already think is attractive and I haven’t even watched outer banks no wonder I was kicking my legs at that gif fr it’s literally the same person I didn’t even recognise her

omg I love murder mysteries although idk how I’m gonna explain to my fam that I’m hogging the telly to watch a movie called ‘glass onion’ 🤣

she does omg ana’s so prettyyyyy

also I recently got back into TikTok (bad timing since it’s gonna get banned in the US, I know) and I started saving videos of girls I think are attractive to a folder…I did not realise how clear cut my two types were until I looked in that folder oh my gosh

Sorry this is yapping

I can’t wait to see your headcanons I love all the stuff you create and it’s so fun to interact with the fandom without the pressure of having to have a blog or a proper account or anything I love the anon life because I just cry at pressure from people and expectations and being an anon doesn’t have expectations because you’re an anon <3

I’ll do the hc when I wake up as it’s 8am and I need to go to bed 😃

Enjoy the tumblrverse!!

- ⭐️

Aw star anon :(( it always makes me sad to hear when my anons aren't doing well, I wish I could be there for you in person to help make things better

I feel like it was intuition because I somehow got the sense you'd send in an ask and I was right haha

She isss you're right I just wish her and blair got along better sometimes because when they're on each other's sides they're unstoppable (though tbf serena causes most of her own problems but we're not going to get into that rn lmao)

It's so fun! I used to dread it at first but now I think it might be my favorite part of the process along with the actual writing of the fics

Yes I haven't forgotten fear not 🥳 I didn't want you thinking I wasn't going to write it for you because it's currently in the works I just need to finish it

Star anon you saying that I give off fluttershy vibes is honestly one of the nicest and sweetest things I think I've ever been told so thank you 🥺💗 and that's okay one of my favorite characters ever is stitch from disneys lilo and stitch, I literally have so much stuff of that fuzzy little blue guy it's not funny

(not sure if you know who he is but this is him in case not ^)

Omg I didn't know she was in outer banks! I've never really been super interested in the show tbh but now I might have to check it out

At least it's better than telling them you're watching a show you refer to as "go piss girl" (sorry I had to make that joke 😭)

You said something about jenna's eyes in one of the scenes from room at the top and now all I'm thinking about is how pretty ana's eyes look in that one gif

Honestly I have SO many edits on tiktok save idk what I'm gonna do whenever it gets banned (they're banning it allegedly because they can't control the flow of information there the same way they can on news stations in case you were curious)

No worries! Your yapping doesn't bother me at all 🥰

You're so sweet thank you 🫶 and I understand that so much, I'm sure the anon life must be free and enjoyable not having to worry about actually maintaining a blog and such

I would scold you but it's almost four am where I live as I'm posting this and you sent this ask in about forty minutes ago so I also need to go to sleep soon lmao

You too star anon!! Sweet dreams 💖

[icysab]

heyo sab howve you been? hope school is good n its not too harsh on you. get that education but dont forget to not push urself too hard yknow.

also here to complain? i have had barely any fic . feeling Sad rn. wish ppl would send requests sometimes, since everyone has such fun ideas. been trying to get inspo from other fics n stuff but guuhh my brain isn't picking anything up. worst thing is having motivation but zero (0) ideas. + been having riki brainrot & its ruining my image.

(also sorry for not texting you directly. i still dont understand when its appropriate to text ppl sometimes but hey you can always msg me if youd like! i need to man up actually n do that too.) hope you have a good day!! – 🐞

hii :)) i’ve missed you!! and i’ve been doing pretty well, albeit kinda stressed haha. schools fs been a lotttt, and my band is playing a show on friday !!!!!! so i’ve def been really really busy running from practices to tech rehearsals to club meetings just to get back at 11 to do three hours of homework lol. but it’ll all be worth it in the end, in my opinion.

& ik how you feel :(. it’s really really hard to keep motivation when you get a grand total of zero interactions. don’t give up though!! i really have never had interactions until this past month where i’ve has so many meaningful ones!! and i’ve had this blog for wellll over a year now. it takes time, but don’t worry! it’ll come— i promise <3

one of the easy ways i get motivation when i’m stuck is my boyfie hcs! they’re easy, i don’t reallly have to think about my writing, and they can be informal. they’re a fun, simple way to just brain dump my inner mental state and still make something out of it. you could try something the same or similar to try and spark some motivation?

and dont be sorry for not messaging me— i 100% get it lol. but also i hope you don’t feel afraid to! i’ve really enjoyed getting to know you and when i say my dms are ALWAYS open, i mean it. so yea, you’re absolutely welcome to dm me whenever <3 it makes my day tbf

hope you have a nice day as well !!

[itssoinevitable]

Hiii 👋 I just wanted to say I’ve been a fan of your blog since the good ole Downton Days and I’m so chuffed you’re a ACGAS fan too! Tbf right now the fandom is super down in the dumps (me included). How are you remaining so positive since Audrey x Gerald development in the Christmas Special?

Hi Anon! Thanks for your message, and happy holidays! So nice to hear from our old Downton Abbey crew again, I think a lot of us migrated here.

To be honest, there are a few reasons I’m not worried. (Sorry, it’s long).

1) Because I honestly love Siegfried and Audrey as friends and surrogate family. Their bond is special and beautiful, whether or not it ever becomes romantic. (Although I hope it does). They are life partners, involved in all the most important parts of each other’s lives. They have coparented Tristan (and James and Jess), they’re each other’s confidant and source of comfort. That’s special in and of itself.

2) Because I actually think they’re playing the (really, really) long game with them. I could be wrong, but that seems to be what the writers are doing. It seems quite intentional. 3 years on screen together may seem a while for some, and I suppose she’s been his housekeeper for around 7 years so it feels like ages. But imo, the best slow burns imo are the ones where you’re never quite sure if they will or won’t. It’s the little crumbs they leave scattered here and there, it’s the longing looks and angsty build up that makes it so delicious tbh. I just hope they get renewed for enough seasons to see it through. (Plus I am a Carson & Mrs Hughes fan, so 3 seasons doesn’t feel that long! Lol)

3) And lastly, because I don’t actually think they’re ready to be together yet. They’re still in the process of getting there.

Siegfried has probably had to longest way to go, in terms of being emotionally ready to realise, admit and accept that he has feelings for his housekeeper. In Season 1, he opened himself up to intimacy and the possibility of love again. He did that with Dorothy and then Diana, (although who knows why she’s been such a non-entity this last season. Maybe the actress wasn’t available?) And now, at the end of S3, he literally just resolved one of his biggest character arcs - his complex relationship and feelings for Tristan (and even then, only with a lot of encouragement and support from Audrey). He’s emotionally levelled up.

Now, I think it’s Audrey’s turn. Gerald befriending her/ pursuing her has allowed her to imagine she could be with someone again, after leaving her husband. It helps her relationship with Edward is also on the mend, since that’s been a source of so much guilt and pain for her. As for her feelings toward Gerald, they do seem to have deepened somewhat suddenly. I know some people said it felt very out of blue considering she had friendzoned him. But maybe she liked him all along and simply didn’t feel she could be more than friends, much as she wanted to. Or maybe it was brought on by the war, and him moving away. Either way, I think he’s a good man, simple and uncomplicated, which is just what she needs as she’s testing the waters of romance again. I think he’s also serving as a catalyst for Siegfried to realise the depth of his feelings for Audrey, which is v exciting imo.

Siegfried is also a good man, but things with him are as ever, more complicated. Their status as employer and employee, and long time friends also raises the stakes a lot more. Considering she’s a lot more self-aware, I think Mrs Hall knows she might have certain feelings for Siegfried (seemed a bit disapproving / jealous of his relationships) but I don’t think she has considered it could go anywhere. I feel that this budding relationship with Gerald will be pivotal in a shift between them. It might motivate her to get her divorce from Mr Hall, and resolve that source of pain from her past, too.

TL;DR All that said, I think they’re getting where to need to be, and I think we should enjoy the journey. It’ll be all the more sweet if and when it happens.

[feistypaaants]

I posted 933 times in 2022

That's 933 more posts than 2021!

33 posts created (4%)

900 posts reblogged (96%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@leonardslee

@sun-stardust

@karis-the-fangirl

@sch-uwu-lchen

@servicetopadora

I tagged 546 of my posts in 2022

Only 41% of my posts had no tags

#spop - 104 posts

#catradora - 84 posts

#about me - 41 posts

#adora - 18 posts

#reminder - 16 posts

#on my league bullshit - 16 posts

#yeah - 14 posts

#catra - 14 posts

#vela tag - 13 posts

#arcane - 13 posts

Longest Tag: 134 characters

#tbf she told me she didn’t want photopass pictures and whenever someone told me that i just took that opportunity to stare at the wall

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

"You didn't have to kiss me," she said. "Yes I did," she answered, and she almost looked sad.

A b-day gift from last year for my beloved @sun-stardust for her fic I loved you then (and I love you now)

145 notes - Posted November 20, 2022

#4

💗 happy 2 year anniversary to Break a Leg 💗

@dandyvela is hosting a DTIYS over on Twitter to celebrate!

148 notes - Posted October 25, 2022

#3

“I’ve always wondered… if you’d give me another chance.” The fingers at Catra’s neck slid to her jaw. “If you’d… let me kiss you again.” She would. Fuck, she would.

Just a silly little moment from my own fic, Take Me Home <333

165 notes - Posted November 26, 2022

#2

Catra sucks, and the blood is as hot as her burning insides. It feels like the entire world is on fire. It feels like they are both made of flames, answering the inevitable call to burn down, to burn together, that they were destined for. Adora moans, and Catra can do nothing but answer in kind, her fire drifting lower and lower until it is burning in her core. She can smell Adora burning the same, hot and wet and electric underneath her, and she can taste it on her tongue. It is becoming harder and harder to distinguish the difference between their bodies.

Homoerotic vampire biting scenes? ✅

More from @sun-stardust’s Bite Down bc I am a simple little guy who likes sexy [redacted]. Read it right here

168 notes - Posted July 19, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

smooches!!! smooches for the birthday girl!!!!

a little post-canon kissing for catra's b-day back in october :') she deserves so many

227 notes - Posted November 19, 2022

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[sadgirlautumn]

I posted 21,618 times in 2022

That's 6,825 more posts than 2021!

3,498 posts created (16%)

18,120 posts reblogged (84%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@mytearsrricochet

@haylewilliams

@sweetsnothing

@notblueitsviolentrain

@rainsoncornelia

I tagged 19,347 of my posts in 2022

Only 11% of my posts had no tags

#gif - 6,000 posts

#yours has been queue - 3,730 posts

#autumn rambles - 2,856 posts

#ts - 2,267 posts

#edit - 610 posts

#halsey - 551 posts

#stranger things - 531 posts

#tour - 519 posts

#midnights - 480 posts

#rep - 457 posts

Longest Tag: 138 characters

#okay tbf i’m sick and was alone most of the day so i haven’t talked to anyone much and i’m a talker so i think that’s what’s getting to me

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

I really hope animal anon is okay. Sending you love if you see this!! You’re such a joy to this community!!

229 notes - Posted November 13, 2022

#4

What’s the re-recording you are most excited for overall and what is the re-recording that you’re most excited to hear the vault tracks from?

257 notes - Posted April 13, 2022

#3

What is one must have song from each album that you need taylor to play on tour from lover, folklore, evermore, fearless tv, red tv, and midnights?

412 notes - Posted October 26, 2022

#2

Anytime I say “oh yeah I’ve heard people talk about that” I’m talking about the tumblr dash btw

425 notes - Posted April 26, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

I’m going to be so normal about speak now tv. (spoken like a liar).

426 notes - Posted November 20, 2022

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[starboymuse]

hi i like ur blog but as a pretty neutral prem fan i’d like to just point out that everyone shit on liverpool last year when they had an injury and covid crisis, especially because they had won the league the year before. i know chelsea are struggling right now but to imply you guys are the only ones who have struggled isn’t really accurate. wolves have had several players missing, west ham are basically falling apart and leeds barely have any senior players. people don’t get how it is so unsustainable to keep a whole squad fit throughout a season, it’s only really doable if you have insane depth which only city has. everyone said chelsea had it but tbf you had your preferred XI and when you can’t use that, it becomes more difficult to get results. liverpool simply don’t have a strong enough squad and will be hurt more by the African Cup of Nations and United are barely a squad right now and need at least a season of development and investment into their midfield and defence to even think about competing. yes it’s unfair that everyone is shitting on chelsea but it proves how the league has turned into a competition of who has the most money and financial backing, essentially like ligue 1 or the bundesliga. you dont have to post this if you don’t want i just thought i’d say i sympathise but it’s a much larger issue at hand here that’s been exacerbated by the pandemic x

i completely agree that it’s a much larger issue that’s been exaggerated by covid but i do think it’s fair for us to complain bc chelsea are struggling more than other clubs and hasn’t been given the same treatment. i understand that other clubs have missing players, injuries, etc. but the majority of those clubs had postponements and shut down their training centers to manage outbreaks yet when we had numerous players testing positive we were refused a postponement. when teams like chelsea and liverpool are at the top they’re expected to do well people are so quick to judge their performance rather than look at the facts. we most definitely need to make new investments in the transfer window we’re losing vital players to injuries that are taking them out for 3-8 months whether or not that’s something other teams are experiencing idk i’m not as invested in them. i’ve said it before that every team in the league is playing multiple games a week so yeah they’re all burnt out but a game like yesterday was a clear example of ref misjudgment and injury crisis. i don’t think any of us are looking for sympathy more so understanding of why we’re so upset. we’re losing mendy to the cup of nations whose been our consistent gk. we’re also losing key players and dealing with back and forth stories of are they leaving are they not so it takes a toll. again, i don’t think any of us are trying to imply we’re the only ones struggling but we’re simply asking people to look at the facts and realize the behavior towards chelsea is biased. it’s clear that the PL only cares about their profit i will never disagree with that that and in one way or another every team has felt that

[afishlearningpoetry]

Still seeing people call us a cult in 2021 😑 🚬 Is there anything that broke this blogging website's brains more than a 2010s BBC show?

Tbh and I’ll get to why it connects to what you’re saying but what really broke this website’s brains is the crab bucket culture of disposability and cycle of online abuse that it nurtured for years until it spread to the rest of the internet... like the early social justice awakening to the yfip blogs and call out posts and anonymous stalking and commenting (that carried over partially from livejournal/older fandom, tbf) that’s translated into like, faulty, second-hand sourced fanwiki websites tracking the perceived dancing with the devil transgressions of some person, a random stranger essentially, has made in their online life, and for what reason, really? For what purpose? Like I think a lot of us gained some awareness at a certain point that these tactics were thinly veiled guises to harass and take personal shots at basically random people for mostly petty reasons (clearly plenty of people are pretending that’s not what it is and went back to it), but I also wonder what it did to the brains of like the youngest people on here, who started using the website since they were children, not just high school age or close to, but even younger people.

That frame of mind is everywhere now, especially with younger fandoms, not just on here. Twitter is pretty terrible. I was watching the Mask Off video from Lindsay Ellis recently and it’s just horrifying to me the way this website essentially birthed that form of harassment. Every step of the way, the way that she (and Natalie, in her own video) detail how it happened is absolutely identical to how it happens on here, except it’s happening in daylight where public figures are in the same fight-to-the-death arena as the rest of us, which is what makes it easier to articulate. This is not to dismiss anything someone like Lindsay has to go through, considering what she disclosed in the video and that she’s been harassed by the alt-right for years, but she also has enough of an online standing to publicly face those charges and refute the majority of them. Like Natalie also said, but what happens to someone else? Someone with no name, or social or financial security, and that’s basically what I’m getting it. That kind of online abuse happening over and over and over and over again trickles down to everybody else. That’s what broke people’s brains. That’s what ruined this website.

And it isn’t just the reactionary, cringe culture post-fandom nihilism that shifted into online culture in 2016 and onwards (I’ve mentioned this before, like, the constant jokes about bad and infamous moments from tumblr), but harassment that still happens on here. You can accuse people of being a pedophile with no credibility, harass them about their eight year old fandom history, or dox and shame them out of public life without much effort, granted there are enough people willing to hop in the crab bucket with you. It has nothing to do with genuinely caring about anything but being an asshole. So for most of that to be distilled into people hate following tjlc (which was named such as a self-aware joke) for literal years when it was largely one of the most fun, positive, creative and dedicated fan spaces I’ve ever been in, and then finally having the wind at their backs to essentially cut everyone down and collect some heads because series 4 finally got the critical backlash they were waiting for to do so with widespread permission (they tried this with series 3, but it just didn’t take because the quality was too consistent), is severely aggravating.

I’ve had plenty of other, smaller negative experiences on here, whether they be trends or staples, and I’ve certainly contributed, but there’s always been enough good for me to stay. But after series 4 that was no longer the case. I just hit a breaking point where I couldn’t be as personally invested anymore, it got so bad. As much as I still want to come here for specific reasons and contribute what I can, I have a lot of trouble engaging with anything because I’m ready to see any new blog or topic I follow to dip into those same habits all over again, which is inevitably what happens. To watch anti-intellectual post-fandom nihilism — and if you’ve been here at all between end of 2016 to now you know the kind of attitude, posts, rhetoric and style of speech, and blogs I’m talking about — kind of dominate this website, has been a large part of why I only pop up sporadically. After Nov. 5th it’s been ironic watching so many people I’d describe that way unironically get into the paranormal show again. Not because I think that’s bad, I follows blogs that talk about it and think it’s cool, I made an edit at the time, or that anyone should be “above it”, we’re on tumblr after all, but because that kind of venomous behavior is still there underneath, like we’re not all also blogging specifically about superwholock shows.

A few months ago when someone accused me of being part of a q anon-level conspiracy and that we’re all “monsters of your own making”, this being before the capitol riot where dozens of members of the US house were nearly murdered en-masse, one of the things they said was that we couldn’t admit that our show was bad, but it was fine what they were doing with the other show because they were just having fun, and that we couldn’t, I don’t know, do anything or whatever about it until we were ready to admit our show is also bad. Which is a pretty revealing look into how that line of thinking, all the way from the early tumblr days, to other places like twitter, all the way back to here again has evolved despite staying the same. This bizarre blend of ironic detachment, self-deprecation, moralizing over a show’s perceived wrongdoings as perceived personal transgressions, bullying, rumors, fan wikis, and years of witnessing or being in on online harassment rewiring people’s brains to the point where not only is it impossible to do anything without jumping through twenty mental hoops before you do it, it’s essentially a both a constant threat and entry-level trial by fire into having any kind of existence in an online fandom space.

Of course it’s not just the barraging from people on here that’s contributed to that kind of culture, it’s everywhere else, because it spread everywhere. Think pieces by people not involved in the space, summaries of what happened mostly written by people who were hate following it to begin with, academic papers by ex-fans, faux-investigative pieces from wanna-be media critics trying to canonize their version of what happened into definitive internet history after preemptively blocking everyone involved so no one can respond to what they say — it’s extremely exhausting every step of the way. I can’t blame ex-tjlc people for just abandoning this place or any online space completely, because it’s still relentless four years later, and if the initial experience of series 4 wasn’t already distressing enough, whatever you think about it now, everyone’s faced the same challenge of being gradually smothered into relinquishing any ties to it through that cycle of shame that’s been perfected and streamlined right down to quick and recognizable beats on this website for over a decade.

[neon-junkie]

Just wanna say that i hadn't come across any toxic behaviour until today within the RDR2 fandom. I'm gobsmacked at how you have been treated on here and I'm sorry you had to endure it. You're an amazing human being, one that I automatically love because of your love for Mr Bell (which is a huge deal because as a rule, I hate people). You're amazing, your work is amazing. Keep it up ❤️❤️

Unfortunately, despite the amount of times I have addressed said concerns, the opposing party has continued to plug their ears and not listen to a word I’ve said; they continue to stalk and harass me, almost for a year now.

However, I’ve received so much love and support which means the world to me<3 it’s interesting that in other fandoms, you’re more than welcome to like the villain(s), but not in the red dead fandom?? Tbf the gatekeeping and policing has only made me like Micah even more... *shrug*

But thank you!!! I’m not going to cut my interests simply because strangers on the internet don’t like it. They can just block list his tags, block me, and focus their energy on things they actually like, rather than getting worked up over... a tumblr blog...  :p

[zirkkun]

Yo you have every right to be upset about things! You're still a person with your own feelings and deserve to be treated kindly. No one should come at you for making things you enjoy or for misunderstandings. I hope things get better for you even if I wasn't here for when all the drama happened (or maybe I was and just wasn't aware of it? I tend to avoid drama as much as possible tbh)

I didn't really post about it much. I think I answered about 4 asks about it (three of them in the same post because i was sure it was the same anon due to the similar string of seemingly continued messages) and the rest I just deleted as soon as they came in, but I got... A lot. A lot of mean things said too. Kinda hurts when you wanted to make something because you knew this work was highly criticized and wanted to let people give it a second chance only to be shot down by the people you were hoping to defend lol

In short, and a lot of it I missed because I was blocked by a lot of people so my friend sent me screencaps; someone took I believe only the old ask box post I had for ULR, which at the time was called "Underlust Rewrite," and was disgusted at the fact that everything was revamped and "made for kids" (because it's not 18+ explicit content, but as I've said before, it's just cause I'm too scared to be horny on main, and I've literally made a whole different biological system for ULR so I can write the necessary story ""sex scenes"" without it being human-like sex or otherwise uncomfortable or too explicit for me to draw, but I still consider it a mature story overall), so they blocked me instantly here and on twitter and then made a callout post on twitter itself. People were telling me originally to stop calling the AU Underlust, and I didn't really get it at first, because like, what's the difference between my spinoff and, say, Underlust Gold, Swapfell Indigo, TS!Underswap, you know, names that have add-ons from the original title to differentiate it but still connect it to the source. So that's what I said, as well as if I removed the Underlust name, it would be considered stealing to me, because I'd be disconnecting it from the source. But apparently, instead, what had been the concern was that it was just being called "Underlust" and the "Rewrite" aspect was implying I was replacing the original story, which like, had never been my intention and I've made a bunch of things with both the ULR and UL cast together and love the idea of Lust and Ace meeting up and just being a disaster duo of not working together at all. I just adore Underlust like it's in my pinned FAQ, Lust's been in my banner for months now, and he's practically my staple pfp character on every account but here atm.

It took like 3 days for it to actually click what was going on, because once I finally got the chance to have a conversation with someone where they weren't telling me I was the scum of the Earth -- which, honestly, bless the three people I talked to, they were so sweet (which actually included someone from the Japanese side of the fandom whose art I loved too... yeah it got pretty far. Once I sent them a message though it was cleared up quickly and they did post a clarification post about ULR and me, so that was nice to see.) -- I finally got the chance to realize that this was a misunderstanding from the beginning, from both sides, where people coming at me were saying I was doing all of the stuff above and probably more but those stuck the most, while I was confused as to where this information and accusations were coming from and what they were referring to in the first place. They probably never explained it in the anon asks because, well, they probably assumed I knew what I was doing, but when they came at me about something I didn't do with vague context of something I did do, I was very confused, and got really defensive really quickly, and really honestly snapped pretty hard. After my first initial explanation post and people were still trying to tell me to stop ULR/don't call it Underlust/whatever else there was, I just got tired and told people to block me if they didn't like it. But that didn't really stop anyone and honestly made it worse because that's when I started getting really nasty messages. I like... Specifically remember one where someone called me a lowlife and a thief, and that one stuck the most, but I tended to not read through them before deleting them for my own sanity. I actually did this to one of the people who'd later talked to me calmly about it at first too, because I had just woken up, and really didn't want to read an essay lecture on everything everyone's been telling me at the crack of 7am when I was borderline ready to delete my account and start over lol

Some people I do remember were accusing me of trying to censor nsfw content or erase it as well because ULR isn't 18+, and I'm out here on my horny ass like "wh. What are they talking about, where did you get that idea, have you SEEN my ao3 recommended list," /j but in all seriousness I really didn't understand that accusation at all because I've never been against nsfw content in the slightest and lowkey? This is very dumb -- but like, you know how they say when you get hate mail, you know you've made it? Well, for me, my thought has always been, "When there's 18+ fancontent of my OC's, I'll have finally made it." This is... Not a joke, some of my friends think its very weird LMAO oh well. I've been on the internet for far too long at this point -- like, definitely since I was far too young, probably, and being with a family of the next youngest being 12 years older than me, I really dove into stuff pretty quickly I definitely shouldn't have, but hey that's life -- I'm really unfazed by mostly anything now. Hell, me making ULR was honestly half motivated by me wanting to make others more comfortable with this kind of media, discussing sexuality and otherwise sexual-considered topics, without really being embarrassed or bothered by it. Because, people talk about death and killing and whatever other gorey stuff just fine, but the moment sex comes up, people just gasp in awe, y'know? I kind of grew up that way myself but like... ironically, in being more comfortable with my asexuality, I realized that it's honestly not that big of a deal. Sure, we don't need to hear the details of everything. We don't need to hear the details of a murder either. But I will never understand how murder is always the lowest on the "morally wrong list of things to not to" to so many people and that it's fine to mention, but even consider bringing up anything else and it's like, a sin and you're a bad person. Even racism is like, higher up on there for a lot of people, which it's like... this is an issue that needs to be discussed, or it can never be solved. You can't just kick that away and hope it goes away on its own, that's never how it works.

Ah, well, now I've gone off tangent lol. Sorry to make you read a blob of text lmao but having things in a cohesive format of what I've been thinking does feel a bit better. Thank you for the support regardless, and I do want to keep making what I really enjoy, because frankly, I really want to make things that make people take a step back and think for a moment, y'know? Things that invoke like a realization in yourself about something you didn't even know. That's how fiction's always been for me, so I want to give back by making it that way too. ... maybe my horny content is exempt from this however. That's just. Self indulgence LMAO.

Probably helps that I'm actually talking this all out for once, too, since before any of this I tried to keep as much of the situation contained to myself as possible in hopes I could clean it up before it got too bad. That was, in hindsight, probably a terrible idea lol. But I didn't want to be a source of stress for anyone following me or become the new creator-to-defend that like, 50% of people hate and 50% of people love and that you're either on one side or the other and there's no where in between. (I feel like Arin Hanson comes to mind for me every time I think of someone like this.) I know I can't please everyone and I knew internet hate would come eventually, but like, didn't expect it to be over a name or tag choice. I thought that would be a simple enough DM or clearable thing but apparently not, especially since I saw someone a few weeks ago delete their blog over a similar thing (though, the opposite, in a way: posting nsfw in a sfw tag by mistake). It wasn't in the UT fandom so y'all probably weren't following them (tbf I wasn't either, I just witnessed it happen from start to finish), but it was still disheartening.

Anyway, thank you, and sorry to make ya read all of that (if you actually did vahdbs don't blame you if you don't it's a lot of thought dump lmao)💕💕

[weedle-testaburger]

Thanks for tagging me @cryptidcheese! (and for calling me a fave blog, you’re really awesome too :D)

3 ships:

Connverse- has SU been over for 6 months? Yes. Do I still love it to bits? Fuck yes. Are Steven and Connie still adorable and a god tier ship? That’s three big yeses right there.

Lumity- you can blame @chronowix​ for sending me it every day lmao, but those two are very cute and Luz is a total bicon!

Stendy- like I said my clown makeup is back on, but Stan being depressed and lonely in the special makes me wanna write a fic about him and Wendy patching things up (maybe not necessarily romantically tbf). I had a bunch of ships I was tempted to put here (Kawoshin, Benson & Troy, Lake & Jesse etc.) but I’ve shipped Stendy for literally 5 years now so...

Currently reading: the Doctor Who novel The Room With No Doors, and Paul Takes The Form Of A Mortal Girl (about a promiscuous hipster-y guy with shapeshifting abilities and a lot of queer friends, so basically someone living the life I’d like to be living right now).

Currently watching: random shit mostly, but I watched the last episode of The Midnight Gospel earlier and cried again because it’s amazing and I’m really looking forward to the final season of Kipo when it comes out a week on Monday. And obviously when SP continues I’ll be watching that as it happens.

Currently consuming: well the last thing I ate was burgers and chips for dinner so let’s say that.

Currently craving: hanging out with my friends again. Or chocolate pretzels if this means food cravings :p

I tag @fujiwhalez, @dysaniadisorder, @tweek-tweaks17, @ness-marsh, @tastyrav, @terudai, @bi-lars and anyone else who wants to do this! :3

[queensbrother]

interview tag!

rules: answer the questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to know better!

tagged by @baguettemagiqu7 thank you!! c:

- nickname: cass 

- pronouns: she/her

- star sign: capricorn

- height: 5′5″/168cm

- time currently: i started this at 6:16pm, went and made dinner then stared at the last question for ages so it’s 9:24pm now

- when is your birthday: january 13

- favorite bands/groups:  oh god um?? recently i’m not so sure? maybe dnce? bastille? otherwise if i look waaay back there’s always... linkin park... fall out boy... mcr... lol 

- favorite solo artists: according to my spotify thing last year it was shawn mendes lmao (maybe avicii for real though :( ...also does he count as a solo artist?) 

- song stuck in your head: i’m listening to music rn so it’s whatever’s playing in my playlist. so at this moment: kryptonite by rymez/james arthur 

- last movie watched: the end of the new mortal kombat because my parents had it on and i can’t remember the last movie i watched in full before that OH WAIT it might have been the untamed - fatal journey 

- last show you binged: what we do in the shadows

- when you created your blog: according to postlimit.com........... september 2010 LMAO (i mean i kind of took a break for a couple years tbf but still) 

- last thing you googled: “when did i start my tumblr blog” (also "dream burger" because i saw something on my dash today)   

- other blogs: tbh i don’t really update them anymore besides @arogueelf occasionally? but i GUESS @shakarian is the only real “active” one i have (though it’s just a queue of reblogs that comes out like once a day haha)

- why you chose your url: queensbrother is like a sort of title given to uldren sov in destiny lore sooo (and it was between this or bastarion and as much as i’d like an astarion related url i am not a huge fan of that one lol) 

- do you get asks: not really! the last time i got some was when i wasn’t really using tumblr but now it’s a bit awkward to answer them :x but i will try to answer any new ones??

- how many people are you following: 303 

- how many followers do you have: i’ve had this blog for over a decade apparently and i’m sure most people are like gone but it’s uh 1436 :x also im sorry if you ever followed me for one of my old fandoms

- average hours of sleep: 3-5 lol 

- lucky number: 6 or 17

- instruments: i wanted to learn to play guitar once upon a time 

- what I’m currently wearing: a yellow dress 

- dream job: video game story/lore/character writing would be really cool 

- dream trip: europe!! or japan! basically where i wanted to go for my honeymoon but we didn’t get a chance to. maybe one day~

- favorite food: cheeseburgers 

- favorite song: of all time? probably iris by the goo goo dolls 

- top three fictional universes you’d like to live in: hmm this is hard! like animal crossing would be great, and actually i’d be down to live in the last city/destiny-verse (but as a guardian so technically i’d be undead haha) and... i genuinely have no idea. like my brain is like “faerun?” because what else have i been thinking of lately? but i feel like faerun is kind of a mess? but i could learn magic and there are elves so that’s neat? but there are also monsters everywhere and i feel like there’s always some cataclysmic event happening somewhere so i don’t know if it would be ideal. maybe TAZ Balance’s version would be kind of nice?

TAGGING: 20 people is so many... uhh @ocheeva and @dalish-spectre​ if you want? ∠( ᐛ 」∠)＿

[toziers]

can you explain what's going on right now? i keep seeing big IT blogs talking about some discourse or something but i have no idea what they're talking about other than it involves you lol

alright i like. i truly do not like having diScOurSE out in public because i’m not one to air out my dirty laundry 24/7 but seeing as how it was brought into public against my will i feel like the least i can do is clear up the situation for those who’ve been seeing the posts. 

i’m putting this under the cut bc it’s long. tws for some biphobia, brief mention of transphobia and, at the end, a rape mention. 

so if you don’t know: hi, i’m migz, i’m an it fandom blogger. its okay, i know, its really cool. part of my shtick here is that i like to turn normal thirst tags into works of art for the sake of comedy. perhaps you’ve seen some of my highlights from my “fhg” tag - perhaps your brain has been spared. either way, it became kind of “my thing” around the third or fourth week (mid nov) of me having this blog. at first, i tagged just about every ask i got mentioning the thirst tags with “bill hader” - they had to do with him, so why not tag him? it would draw more like minded people! about two days into that i got a message asking me to tag my nsfw. i am a big dumb idiot, and apologize for not initially doing it. i havent had a following bigger than like 10 in several years and completely spaced on basic etiquette. so by the end of november i was tagging everything applicable  with “notsfw” and “bill hader”. 

now you’re caught up.

on december 1st i got this message from user billhaderanti:

now i want to start by saying i absolutely was in the wrong here. i didn’t even think about how many people were being subjected to the asks i was getting - especially ones who had no idea they were all jokes. i don’t track the bill hader tag, so it just didn’t even occur to me - that’s ignorance on my part, and to anyone who was subjected to the terrors of me before my tagging system: i am genuinely sorry. i relay the same sentiment in my response, though you can tell i’m on edge.

and they replied:

clearly they Were offended by it but thats.. not the point. at this point, im feeling Really weird about the whole interaction, but still understanding, because again - i GET it. i know my posts are gross - that’s the point. it doesn’t make it excusable, though, which is why i understand why people are offended. so i responded with the only solution i Knew would keep us both safe and happy posting on our own blogs. 

so i thought this would be the end of things! i’d been pretty anxious lately already since i’d started to receive anons telling me i was gross and whore-ish for thirst posting in this way (i delete all of those, so if ur thinking about sending one, i guess no one’s stopping you but it won’t be seeing the light of the dashboard). i’m unsure if it was immediately or a few hours later, seeing as how i have a bad concept of time and the post-dates are right on the edge between nov 30 and dec 1, but i went to their blog - because anyone who has been on the internet knows the opportunity to vague post is near irresistible. and...what do ya know

fair! it’s their blog. however i am an emotionally fragile egg girl and immediately got freaked out. the odds that they were the only one who thought this were low. and, again, i’ve been very open on my blog about how important it is to respect boundaries; my posts are absolutely prone to breaking those boundaries people have created for themselves. 

so i made my own, semi-vague post, letting my following know (and i’m pretty sure i’d answered asks about it before, but this is going to be long enough w/o me searching those up too) that i understood if they wanted to block me or unfollow or whatever - people need to create their own safe spaces. the tension is pretty clear in the tags, i’m not trying to hide that. i felt that the way this woman slid into my dm’s was pretty abrasive (just my opinion/how it made me personally feel) and i let myself be a lil emotional about it in the tags of my post.

alright! maybe this is the end. maybe we both go our separate ways and post happily on our own blogs... except it’s not the end. later in the day (some of this was happening like 1/2am, so now its Day day, i believe - again, not good w time passage lol)

clearly, i’m upset. my groupchat double checked that i didn’t get too emotional in my response - did i mention im anxious about discourse lol - and apparently.. it did the trick. she didn’t message me again. great. it was over. 

at this point, i decided i needed to make an even bigger change. so a few days after i’d calmed down i created an entirely new tag for my thirst posts so if people hadn’t already hidden the notsfw posts or just blocked me outright, they’d have a third option to escape the madness. at this point, id had my blog about 6? weeks, but there were still 2k posts for me to sift through - some of them were completely untagged. i also had to do it post by post, because one of xkits features - the mass re-tagger - was getting blogs deleted for some reason, and i wasn’t going to do that. so i spent a few days going through all 2k+ posts, adding the “fhg” tag. 

YEEHAW! a brand new tagging system, no more hopping into the bill hader tag (minus one or two really funny, not super explicit asks, like the bill hader farquaad meme), and, tbf, i’d completely put this woman out of my mind. i don’t seek out drama and do my best to stay in my lane. yesterday, i checked my activity for the first time in awhile since id put out a couple new original posts that had started to get traction and i Love reading tags. i noticed a mutual had @’d me, and realized i havent checked my @’s in...ever, maybe. i see a post from my good pal billhaderanti. 

since i dont follow them and never check my @’s, i’d completely missed it. however, once i did see it, i was horrified. id gone through all that fucking work to keep my blog My Blog and also respect everyone’s boundaries and it still hadn’t been enough. i’d been awake for almost 24 hours and went. a little crazy. and i didn’t reply immediately because i just had no words. i sent it to my friends because i... i just wasn’t going to be able to figure it out myself. 

there’s a lot to unpack in this post alone, but whatever, i’m gonna put my own grievances with the immaturity of 1. making a callout post to begin with when i’d been nothing but civil 2. making a callout post about something as (in the grand scheme of Life) minor as some tags where i refer to a someone’s genitals as a “whack pack” and 3. making a callout post in such a rude way - aside. at the end, she calls me (and whoever else!) a demonic mlw (man loving woman, we assumed, and then later confirmed with a post further back on her blog). 

which - yeah, we started scrolling. at first we were looking for more vague blogs, and then we just...started finding things. billhaderanti is a self proclaimed lesbian separatist, which... fine. but it’s already pretty clear that this woman hates me on some level simply because i am a bi woman (demonic mlw, remember!) which is just. damn man i can’t believe we are still fighting the biphobic fight lol. so the more we scrolled, the more we uncovered - and not just the biphobic / vaguely mtf transphobic things they posted (or put in tags), but we also found that they had their OWN thirst tags. certainly not as hyperbolically comedic as mine, but they were there, talking about his body and his person the same (and, frankly, a bit creepier for other reasons) as mine. 

there’s one post in particular that snatched my wig in it’s creepiness - and i say creepiness in the sense that it feels personal. like this woman feels like she knows bill to some degree where she can say these things. my tags have always had a sense of distance, as they’re written for humor. and maybe this particular post was written for comedic purposes, but it doesn’t read that way, and if it WAS, then she has no right to call ME out for MY comic tags and posts. 

i’ll let it speak for itself, mostly because i don’t want to read it again. 

i also won’t be going through her blog again to find the posts with biphobic and other Interesting:tm: tags because there are plenty and i just really! want to be done with the whole ordeal! her blog is public and i’m sure you can all find it and look to your heart’s content. 

feeling a bit feral and a bit pissed off now that we knew the depth of how rotten this woman’s vibes were, a couple of my pals made a post or two similar to what my tag’s are like except turned up to eleven (if possible) - and tagged them with “bill hader” (and notsfw!!). yes, a bit childish, but at this point, the entire situation was childish, and making jokes was truly the only way we were going to get through it. another vague post went up on her blog soon after.

talking down to us, calling us children, and then for whatever reason calling us virgins... whatever, weird post. around this time most of us (est) went to bed, because it was nearing 3 or 4 in the morning. 

and then today happened. i woke up fresh and ready for the day after a wonderful 4 hours of sleep and found that jane had made an incredibly intelligent post in response to the situation. i won’t ss it, but i’ll LINK in case you missed it. attached there in the reblog is my own response. i think they can speak for themselves. 

after that, things were kind of jumbled, since i wasn’t online a lot and when i was i was Not checking my activity simply because i was afraid of what i’d see. for the most part, it ended up just being support (which i am very grateful to all of you for - it means a lot that you all enjoy my content to any degree). 

there was some more vague posting from both “““““sides”””””” of the “““““argument”””””” - mostly just people restating the fact that this is a public space and we should All be aware of how we effect others. i still hadn’t heard directly from billhaderanti, so i assumed we’d all be dropping and disengaging and moving on. i still wasn’t blocked, though, so who really knew what would happen. 

eventually, it culminated in this last post. tw for mentions of rape

i’m going to start by saying that 

1. there are nearly no teenagers that were involved in this. im turning 23 in january and most of my friends are 20+. maybe one or two are 19. 

2. none of us sent any sexually violent asks - most of us didn’t send asks at all. i believe one or two of my friends admitted to sending asks however they assured me their nature wasn’t bad; as far as i know, everyone remained civil in whatever went on (again, unclear to me as to what was being sent; no one was actively posting or talking about it. if billhaderanti wishes to elaborate, they can, but i don’t have anything to put in). 

3. before i finish this, i would like to apologize to billhaderanti. as a comedian - not just my stupid tags, i mean in real life, too - i know that humor can hurt. it’s not always funny, it’s not just stupid hahas. sometimes things that are supposed to be jokes just hit people differently and cause bad things. i recognize that. i never meant to trigger you (if you’re reading this) or cause you any severe mental/emotional harm. i apologize for my humor bringing up your trauma, and i never meant for that. regardless of my own thoughts and opinions about the nature of my posts/the thirst tags themselves, they hurt you, and i’m sorry. 

anyway, i’m going to wrap this up (i’m bad at endings, what can i say! steven king and i took the same writer’s class!). if you read all this... sorry. i probably won’t be taking any asks about it, because i find the whole “drama” of this to be stupid and rooted in some seriously biphobic issues this fully grown woman has. 

tldr; i attempted to contain my blog so this woman could exist and function safely on her blog, but it wasn’t enough for her, so she called me out, and then some of the fandom called Her out for being biphobic and mean and overall just immature about the situation. as of now, she’s yet to block me, though her and her wife have blocked a few of my friends. her wife continues to clown on my friends. this post was made for clarity’s sake. the end, i’m getting a drink. 

[storytell]

@florabled​ asked

1-20!

1. What would prevent you from following someone?

well, it’d probably depend on how put-together their blog looks, and i think the frequency with which they write is also important. also, someone having too many rules or rules that sound too aggressive is something that might put me off, but if i really like their muse i dunno if it’d prevent me from following.

2. Are aesthetics important to you? If they are, why?

on some level, yes. on one hand, i won’t follow someone with good graphics if their writing sucks, but it IS a little bit of a deterrent when someone doesn’t put a lot of effort into their blog graphics because if their pages and replies also seem pretty lackluster then it makes me think they just don’t care as much?

3. What current rp trend do you hate?

DEFINITELY dash-only blogs. i say this while following a lot of them, and i don’t hate the people who do have dash-only blogs, but it feels like it’s really redundant now. the trend of google doc rules started because normal rules pages aren’t very accessible to mobile users, and while i think that kind of accessibility is great.. a lot of people have rules pages that aren’t even READABLE on mobile. plus, i just like having everything in one place.

4. How do you explain rp to someone in the real world?

i dunno. if i have to, i straight up say it’s “collaborative writing, where each person writes a character and you build a story together” because it sounds less embarrassing than saying “i write anime mark twain and sometimes if i’m feeling spicy he fucks pumpkins”.

5. Do you prefer interacting with male muses or female more? Why?

i don’t think i have a preference. i definitely find myself interacting with male muses more, but that’s more because my friends tend to write male muses more than female muses.

6. Do you prefer writing male muses or female more? Why?

gender isn’t REALLY a factor in my muse choices. i have a lot more male muses than female muses, but i think that itself is more of an issue with the writing of most of the female muses in the series i like, because they seem a lot more.. stale, in most cases? then you have servamp, which only has like 4 female characters total.

7. What’s your opinion on call out posts?

if they’re not angry and opinion-based, and are well-put together with evidence from multiple sources, i might reblog it if i feel it’s relevant to warn my friends and acquaintances about someone. generally, though, i tend to stay away from them.

8. Name any three things about the rpc that bother you.

the fact that nobody seems to want to talk to eachother, the unpopularity of open starters, and people who refuse to accept that others can have headcanons different than theirs.

9. What is your opinion on exclusivity? Do you practice it? Why / why not?

i don’t mind exclusivity ever. i do very rarely practice exclusivity, because there are occasions where i’m REALLY attached to a certain bond or dynamic that has formed between my muse and my partner’s. i think all of my current exclusive relationships are with kit, but i’ve probably at least thought about being exclusive if we have a developed relationship between our muses.

10. Have you ever had a bad experience with commissions? As either someone who makes them or as someone who buys them?

i’ve actually never commissioned someone because i’m afraid of coming off as rude or demanding even though i know most artists probably WANT more commissions so they make more money.

11. What do you know now about rp that you wish you knew when you first started?

i wish i knew how important graphics were to the general community! i was a total mess with my first blog and i didn’t know how to do anything. not a lot of people wanted to interact, but i’m very grateful for the ones who did, because without them i wouldn’t be writing here!

12. Have you been involved in drama? Do you regret it?

yes. as someone who has unpopular opinions within the fandom, i have found myself caught up in petty fandom drama. the drama that most impacted me happened in the bsd fandom where i sent another rper an ask on anon and we got into a pretty short-lived but heated fight. i used to feel really bad about it, but recently i’ve realized how much they were overreacting and being kind of an asshole about it, so now when i think back on it it almost makes me laugh a little.

13. Have you ever thought about leaving rp? What caused it? What changed your mind?

i have not. yet.

14. Do you think rp has had a positive or negative affect on your life or you as a person?

overall, i think rp has been pretty positive for me. i’ve become a lot more consistent with my writing and my writing style and over the time i’ve had my blog i’ve started to get a little better at replying to more things rather than just dropping things the moment i don’t feel like writing them.

15. How has rp changed you personally?

i think i’m a lot more confident with my writing than i was beforehand. it’s nice.

16. If you could change one thing about rp on tumblr, what would it be? Why?

probably just the general divide between rpers. recently i’ve been trying to reach out to more people, but it’s a little exhausting on my mental health to do that when a lot of people generally seem like they don’t want to branch out much.

17. Have you ever sent a message to yourself on anon? Why?

the only time i can recall was sending myself asks from a headcanon meme because nobody else had sent anything and i was really bummed about it.

18. Have you ever sent hate to yourself on anon? Why?

yes. i’m not proud of it, but it happened on my old gentle blog a couple of times. i’m not sure why i did it, but i guess i just wanted to seem cool or to get attention. i’d never do that today but tbf i was like 14, shit happens. 14 year olds are just like that.

19. Do you delete anon hate or post and address it? Why?

it depends. sometimes i’ll post and address it if it’s an issue i want to address seriously. sometimes if it’s a repeat offender like the person who wants me to have less muses i’ll post it and poke fun at them. other times, like in the case of the really creepy and weird anons i kept getting before, i’ll delete the ask and block the anon.

20. Have you ever felt pressured to write something you weren’t comfortable with?

not recently, but yes. on my very first blog i had a hard time saying no to an oc that REALLY wanted to ship with my muse, and it honestly made me uncomfortable enough to leave that blog and make a new one. i also had some bad experiences on the site i USED to rp on where someone pushed me into rping smut when i was still like 13-14. bad times, man.

kw strikes again.     /     accepting.

[worrying-solves-nothing]

1-50 duh

1. What’s your sexual orientation?

🏳️‍🌈

2. What are you obsessed with right now?

Fluffy socks and hot chocolate

3. Ever done any drugs?

Not really

4. What piercings do you want?

There are a few ear piercings I want, but other than that, I’m done

5. How many people have you kissed?

Not a clue

6. Describe your dream home.

Cute and cosy. Not too big but not too small. Well decorated, neat, and homely, where everything has a place.

7. Who are you jealous of?

Every hot girl to exist

8. What’s your favorite show to binge?

I don’t have a favourite, just whatever I’m watching at the time

9. Do you watch porn?

Sometimes. I have a lot recently 😂

10. Do you have a secret sideblog?

I do

11. If you could teleport anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?

Old Mans in Bali for happy hour 🏝

12. What’s one of your fantasies?

Travelling the world, falling in love, and going to the beach everyday

13. Do you have/would you get your nipples pierced?

It was actually my 2 year nipaversary the other day

14. How would you spend a million dollars?

I’d definitely help my parents out a lot, buy myself a little place, and probably save and donate the rest because I’m boring 😂

15. Are you in a relationship?

No

16. Do you follow porn blogs?

Probably

17. Are you angry with anyone right now?

Not anymore

18. What tattoos do you want?

I’m not really sure I do anymore. I wanted so many for so long but I feel the moment has passed

19. If you could change your name, would you? What would you change it to?

I probably wouldn’t. I quite like Jay/Jess

20. What is something you’re obsessed with?

Making sure my sleeves are perfectly rolled at all times

21. Describe your best friend.

Amazing. Beautiful. Bad ass.

22. Tag someone you think is hot.

hahaha no

23. Who are five of your favorite bands/musical artists?

Bon Iver, Bleachers, Bears Den, Moose Blood, Fleetwood Mac

24. What are three places you want to travel?

South America, Australia, Southeast Asia

25. Describe your perfect Friday night.

Staying in, making homemade pizzas with a cute girl, having a few drinks, playing board games, and having a bubble bath together 👌🏻

26. What’s your favorite season?

I love them all apart from Winter cause I’m a cold bitch

27. What’s your pet peeve?

Slow walkers

28. Who is the funniest person you know?

All my pals are pretty hilarious

29. What’s the most overrated movie?

The breakfast club, clueless, and I hate to say it but.. Harry Potter 🤭🤭

30. Tag someone you want to talk to but have been too shy to message.

I don’t think there is anyone

31. Do you like paper books or ebooks better?

Paper books 100%

32. If you could live in a fictional world, what world would you pick?

Kinda wanna live on that island with Moana tbf

33. If money was no object, what would your wardrobe be like?

Probably exactly the same but with more shoes and denim jackets

34. What’s your coffee order?

I actually only drink coffee at home

35. Do you have a crush on anyone?

Maybe a little bit 👀

36. Do you still have feelings for any of your exes?

No

37. Have any tattoos?

Nope

38. Do you drink?

I do

39. Are you a virgin?

No

40. Do you have a crush on any of your mutuals?

Yes 😂

41. How many followers do you have?

5,046

42. Describe the hottest person you know.

That would be telling 👀

43. What’s your guilty pleasure?

Wearing socks to bed and eating peanut butter out the jar

44. Do you read erotica?

No but I definitely used to read some wild fan fiction 😂

45. What’s the worst date you’ve ever been on?

All my dates tend to go really well but I once met up with a girl from tinder who had the personality of a brick wall.

46. How many people do you follow?

2,388

47. If you could marry any celebrity, who would you pick?

Chrissy Teigen

48. Describe your ideal partner.

Outgoing, loud, great sense of humour, but also a massive softie with a heart of gold. Someone who knows what they want from life and a relationship and has their shit figured out. Looks wise I tend to go for brunettes who are girly but I’ve dabbled with a tomboy or two.

49. Who do you text the most?

I text most people equally

50. What’s your favorite kind of weather?

I’m always a sucker for a nice sunny day